I've come to realise it's time to let loose and live a little!
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| (I do not own this photo. Source: Unknown) |
I was always the person who people were shocked to see drinking, swearing or doing something a little bit astray of the 'goody two shoes' image. This was especially the case whilst I was at school and I have to say I got a little sick of it.
I'm a worrier and I over think everything. Recently I've realised that there is no joy or happiness to come from that, in fact it makes me upset, sad, worried and angry. Why can't I just live in the moment and enjoy what's happening rather then worrying what might happen the next day?
I want to start feeling happy in the moment. I want to not worry about getting in a little bit of trouble. I want to laugh more. I want to be more positive. I want to look back at my years as a young adult and think 'wow you had the best time' rather 'why did you sit there worrying so much?'
Don't worry, I'm not off to do loads of drugs, steal from a few shops and start fights with strangers... I will never be that person! By 'trouble' I don't mean with the police or any of that nonsense, I just mean the lighthearted saying that 'rules are made to be broken'.
I am not an unhappy person at all. I'm really happy, but I have these moments where worrying just takes over. I've found it effects me when writing blog posts and even more so filming youtube videos. I film a video, edit it all, uploaded it to youtube, go to post to twitter and suddenly think 'but what if that person who I went to school with, who I haven't spoken to in a year and who lives half way across the country makes a mean comment about it?' Well, I have come to realise (please do excuse my french, but this blog post calls for it!)... 'Who gives a sh*t if they do?!'
Just ignore that fact I've had a little to drink in both of these photographs... but this is the 'me' I want to see more of: I'm happy, I'm laughing, I'm singing my heart out, I'm hugging a plastic fish and I'm loving life, in the moment, with not a care in the world.
So here's to the new G!
♥
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Hello there, a November Resolution to start the month with...
(Image found via Pinterest. Originally from Krisatomic)
I have missed my blog so much whilst I haven't had internet in my flat. Not only have I missed updating mine, but also reading all the blogs I love, daily. But, whenever I got the chance to update or catch up I always felt like I wish I had something better to post when it came to photos. Since I moved to Brighton I have barely even touched my cameras... saaaaad face. I never put my cameras down when I was at home, I was always the one taking photos at parties and on days out.
In such an exciting and new time of my life, why have I chosen to put the cameras away now? Confidence. I'm scared to take my cameras out for the 'why are you taking a photo of that?!' and 'put your camera away!' comments. How ridiculous is that!? I have relied on my iPhone for photos for the first 6 weeks of uni life, but as of now, that is going to stop! I'm going to try my absolute best to not be afraid to take my camera out with me and to take photos of anything I want to.
November is one of my favourite months of the year. It's birthday month, fireworks night, the build up to christmas begins and it starts to get super wintery and chilly and then of course it's December and nothing makes me happier than christmas. I love it! So, there couldn't be a better time to start this.
What has your confidence stopped you from doing? Any other bloggers feel like this?
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