Monday, 24 August 2020

How I went from dreading PE to running my first 5k.

*Disclaimer - I wrote this post a year ago and it's been sitting in my drafts. I've just stumbled upon it and was sad i never shared it. So here goes...*

If you had told me, at the age of 15, that one day I'd be running weekly and entering my first ever 5k, I would have laughed in your face...

Well hey 15 year old G, you just ran your first 5k!


Let's take it right back to school. I dreaded PE lessons. Unless it was a sunny game of rounders or the term we did girls football and it turned out I was actually not that awful at it... I was not a fan. The fear of summer rolling round to be told it was time for 'Athletics' and House Cross Country was my worst nightmare. Athletics would see me give my best shot at the 100m race to 1500m race, but ultimately I'd come in the last few people time and time again. Running up to that finish line while the rest of the class sit and watch you is the ultimate confidence boost when you're a hormonal 14 year old, right? All for your time to be written down, never to be addressed again and your teacher to say 'Right, on to Shot Put.' House Cross Country was even worse. The entire school all running the same track and cheering at the finish line, a day my best friend Charlie and I would absolutely dread and think of every excuse under the sun to get out of (however never go through with implementing any excuses because there was no way out. You just had to run it the following week instead. And we were in this together.) We got through it by running down the hills, pointing out random lost shoes and wondering how on earth they got there and singing songs from The Mighty Boosh. We'd run up the final hill approaching the corner of cheering crowds towards the finish line and hope the ground would swallow us up. But then, just like Athletics, we'd finish and the time would be written down and I wouldn't have to think about it until next year.


It wasn't until I started running myself this year, I realised just how damaging those lessons were for my thoughts around exercise. 'I can't run' 'I'm definitely not a runner' became a stock phrase throughout my life because I'd never been taught the importance of TRAINING. Now I will say, I absolutely loved my school and I understand we were young, schools can't adjust to every child's ability and this was a good ten or so years ago now, however training and building up fitness and skill is not a new concept. Why didn't they use each lesson to teach students to strive for a little more than they managed last time? Why weren't they teaching us how to train our bodies? How amazing I would have felt if I started the term unable to run 500m and finished it with a 500m run well within my capabilities? I know for a fact I'd of enjoyed the thought of PE lessons a lot more if I felt like I had achieved something at the end of term, not just a scribbled down time and a whole load of embarrassment. I'd probably attempted going for a run a maximum of 6 times since I left school and every-time felt defeated and to be honest, pretty shit because I just couldn't do it.



Fast forward to this year, after seeing the London Marathon on TV and thinking how incredible crossing the finish line must be, I decided I wanted to enter a run myself. I have no idea why I suddenly felt inspired by the idea, but it felt like something I could do solely for me, my body and my mind and absolutely no one else. I started at the idea of the marathon... then had a big reality check, scaled it back and decided to aim for a 5k (baby steps, Georgia, baby steps). I downloaded the BBC app 'Couch to 5k' that I had seen popping up on Instagram and gave it a go. That first run was hard - run for 1 minute, walk for 90 seconds, 8 times - Embarrassingly, running for 1 minute was tough for me but for the first time ever, having this app playing in my headphones meant I could run for one minute, recover for 90 seconds whilst walking... and the run again! Rather than giving up the moment I felt like dying, I realised I was capable of doing more, but I had to train my body and up my fitness levels to do so. Week one complete, week two was even harder... and unsurprisingly so was week three, four, five... however I GOT FITTER! I could do it. This app show me how to train, how to push myself that little bit further each week. As the runs got longer, I did find it tough and I couldn't always keep up but I went easy on myself, If I needed longer to complete a run before moving onto the next week, then longer I shall have.

I signed up for the 'The Color Run' with my two friends, Emma and Jasmin. I thought I'd start with something fun, I loved the idea of being covered in colours and The Color Run isn't timed, you can complete the run however you'd like. A few nights before the run, I had a big cry about it. I had this looming feeling that I wish I'd never told anybody I was doing it. Knowing that both Em & Jas could run further than me, I felt upset at the thought of crossing the finish line knowing it would just be yet another run I would come last in. (spoiler, I was wrong, the girls didn't leave my side... duh)

I felt better after a sleep and woke up knowing that how I felt when I crossed that finish line, was entirely up to me. I had to remember how bloody far I had come and leave comparison at the starting line. My best run up this point had been 8 minutes solid running, then alternating between running and walking until I hit 4.5k. Run day came, we set off, already covered in paint and I was determined to keep up with the girls - who had assured me there was no way they were running ahead anyway.

WE RAN THAT 5K.

We stuck together, we had a few very short walking stints, but our pace remained the same and then we would power through the pain and start running again. That feeling crossing the line was incredible. I was so proud of myself.


I couldn't have done the run without my sisters by my side. Jasmin was a fellow Couch to 5k gal, also running her first 5k and Emma was an absolute star, she kept us going, kept up the pace and was our best cheerleader throughout. (*Georgia a year later here* Emma and her boyfriend Rory are currently running 5k EVERYDAY(!!!!) in August, it's for such an important cause - if you'd like to support them, please donate here


To anyone looking to challenge themselves or start running, start small and celebrate your progress, you might just surprise yourself! 

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Monday, 11 May 2020

LISTEN. WATCH. READ. DO.

At the time of writing this, we have been in lockdown for nearly two months. That is a sentence I never thought I'd start a blog post with...

Time, since mid-march is a complete blur - days are blending into one and this new temporary normal is weird. It's a funny thought process for me when I think about what I wanted to achieve with this time at home. I had to find that balance between realising that lockdown during a global pandemic is not the time to force myself into new skills and mega productivity but also not wanting to look back at this time with nothing to show for it. As a creative person, I want to create! I'm grateful I'm able to do half my job from home and that has kept me busy during the week and weekends have been a time for hobbies, tv shows, books and embracing life in the slow lane. Who knows where this rollercoaster is heading to next - with very little clarity on what plan is in place - but we certainly won't be back to busy weekends and booked out diaries.

So with that, I thought I'd share the things that have kept me occupied the past few weeks. (These are some faves of mine, lockdown or not!) 


WATCH. 

- TV SHOWS -

Normal People 
Me and the rest of the UK are falling head over heels for this love story. It is perfect. It is happiness, love, calm, chaos, sadness, joy, loss, it's every emotion and somehow you'll feel them all at once. It brought me tonne of joy and also left me with an emotional hangover for about three days.
The OC 
Late to the party, by a good 15 years...! But as a Gossip Girl fan, I knew I'd love The OC. I'm just about to start Season 4 and it's ticking all the old school American teen drama boxes very nicely.
Desperate Housewives
An oldie, but a goodie. First time round, I was probably a little to young to be watching it when it first started, but with a tv in my room and a ninja quick reaction to turning the tv off (who am I kidding, Mums know everything) I watched this the first time round from Season 2. Re-watching it, it is just a good second time round! It is juicy and dark and sassy and just so. damn. good. 
The Bold Type 
When there was a Gossip Girl and 90210 shaped hole in my heart, The Bold Type came along and filled it in the best way possible. This show is SO good, it covers so many important and very real issues (big and small) but in a relatable and non preachy way. They basically feel like your best friends. You can find seasons 1-3 on Amazon Prime, but I need to find somewhere to watch Season 4, any UK links please send my way. 

- Other Faves - 
Fleabag, 90210, Clique, Cold Feet, YOU.

- IG LIVES - 
People are giving the goods online at the moments. It's nice to watch things from people who are in the very same situation to you - whether they're keeping you fit, talking about their faves, answering juicy questions or having a Friday night drink, it's nice to remember we're all going through this together. Here's a few of my fave weekly IG lives. 

Danielle Peazer workouts - most week days 11am
Lily & Anna Live - Saturday 1:30pm
Lindsay & Lizzy 'Things Yer Can't Ask Yer Mum' Live - Monday 5pm
Jim Chapman & Guest 'Speakeasy' - Friday 9pm 


LISTEN.

- MUSIC -
Right at the beginning of lockdown I put together a bunch of my favourite feel good tunes to have a little song and dance to when I needed a pick me up. A few friends are now turning to this as their go to music selection so I thought I'd share it with you guys too. Click here to see my 'quaranTIMES' playlist on Spotify. 

- PODCASTS -
One of my favourite ways to crack down on my screen time is to put a podcast on and put my phone away. Here are some of my faves. (Note - My Dad Wrote a Porno is not one to listen to out loud in the family home...!) 

The High Low 
Things You Can't Ask Yer Mum
Table Manners
My Dad Wrote A Porno
Happy Mum Happy Baby


DO.

- BOOKS - 
I know a lot of people are finding it hard to switch off in the world of a book right now, but if you are looking for a new read, here are some of my favourites.
Daisy Jones & The Six - Taylor Jenkins Reid
Behind Her Eyes - Sarah Pinborough
Then She Was Gone - Lisa Jewell 
Everything I Know About Love - Dolly Alderton
Ice Cream For Breakfast - Laura Jane Williams

A lastly, just a few things I turn to when I need to completely take my mind off what's happening, stop looking at screens or just get stuck into something creative.

Calligraphy
Macramé
Embroidery
Colouring books
Baking
Finding and cooking new recipes (then eating, obvs)
Tidying, sorting, clearing out cupboards
and, well, lying down and staring into space for a little while, because we all need time to digest reality right now.

That's the lot! I'm sure you've seen a tonne of these by now but there might be something new in here that takes your fancy.

G x


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Friday, 7 February 2020

10 Things That Made Me Happy This Week

It's Friday morning, I've got my coffee, sunshine pouring in - as it has all week, so feel good - and I thought I'd write one of my favourite posts. Here's a little list of 10 things that have made me happy this week.


1. As I already mentioned - the sun has been shining all week. I've had an edit heavy week, which means a lot of work from home days. Sunlight beaming into our home is one of the best simple pleasures in life. 
2. My best friend Abi turned up unannounced with coffee and homemade vegan Snickers on Wednesday. She ended up staying the whole evening. What a treat.
3. We've just had our bathroom redone and I am IN LOVE. Is it weird to want to work from your bathroom?
4. 70's style. Give all the floaty sleeves, flares and chunky platform boots. 
5. Good Winter TV - Deadwater Fell, The Stranger, Cold Feet, Sex Education - there's a lot to watch at the moment.
6. Roasted Veggie & Lentil Jumble I had in my Hello Fresh box this week. It was one of the nicest meals I've had in a long time. Tasty, healthy and a good one for when Henry is out and I want something filling and nutritious. 
7. Buying a new little house plant to fill one of my favourite pots that's been waiting for a housemate for a while. I'm so eager to get back out in the garden when Spring rolls back around so for now, new houseplants to look after can fill that void. 
8. An app that's a newbie in my life, it's called 'Habit'. You can track if you're keeping up with habits you're trying to make stick - it's colourful, simple and visually pleasing - I'm tracking reading, drinking more water and waking up before 8am.
9. Speaking of reading - I'm on book 3 of the year and I'm loving getting lost in another world. It's a really nice break from screen-time which is at a big high right now. 
10. Still feeling those new year productivity vibes. I usually find January to be a pretty positive month for me - albeit a bloody long one - and February I start to tick back to my usual headspace. This year that 'lets push forward' feeling seems to be sticking around and you won't see me complaining! 

So there you go, 10 little things that made me happy this week. What's put a smile on your face? 

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Tuesday, 4 February 2020

life on film 002

Another roll of film for you. I'm a little behind uploading them, but I'm going to backdate them as I'd love to share them all on my blog. Shooting on film has become one of my favourite things and the surprise/waiting element of it makes it even greater. Film 002 has some snaps from a sunny Sunday at Columbia Road Flower market, a 'Fleetwood Mac' night in Brighton with the girls, Sam and Tor's beautiful wedding and v. fun work trip to Copenhagen. 





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Friday, 17 January 2020

Twenty Twenty

Oh hey there! Hope January is treating you well. As you can see we've had a mini re-brand! 'Love on the Wall' is no more and now my blog simply goes by the same name as me. (just my URL to sort, bare with!) I've taken a step back to see how I want to use my online space this year, with a change of job too, I want it to sit nicely together and keeping it simple feels like the right direction.

So, Twenty Twenty is here!  How on earth we got here and we're not still traipsing through a rainy 2019 Feb, I have no idea. I bloomin' love a new year though, I feel all those positive vibes kick in and I feel ready to take on the world. I always find the New Year hits and I haven't started thinking about my goals for the year ahead, so instead of rushing them so I can start them the moment the clock strikes 12, I usually take a few days to really evaluate what I'd like to achieve in the next 365 days. 


More Moving. Run another 5k. 
Last year I started running (who am I?) and in September I ran my first 5k! Running was never something I enjoyed growing up but despite finding it tough, it seems to kinda work for me. I can do where ever, whenever and it's free. I want to pick it back up again - when it's not dark and 0 degrees outside, let's be honest - and enter myself into another 5k. I try not too be too hard on my body - it keeps me alive and it's a bloody wonderful thing. However, I do want to feel stronger and healthier so I hope to make a bit of a fitness journey this year to find my groove. (I'd also really like to fit comfortably into my Topshop jeans again, please, thanks.)

More Creating.
I'd like to focus on expanding my skills and creating more in 2020. Learning new ways to edit, new settings on my camera, practising more calligraphy, getting to grips with procreate on my iPad, trying new things, testing new ways. My job is creative - and at the end of last year I went part-time free lance, so it's on me now! - so I want to feel inspired and have new ideas, that won't happen if I sit in my comfort zone. I want to look back on 2020 and see work (and play) that I'm truly proud I created. 

More Cooking.
In 2019, one of my goals was to cook more and learn more recipes. With it being my first full year living in my house, this was bound to happen but I made an active effort to try new things. We actually ordered a few Hello Fresh boxes which broadened our 'go-to' recipes massively and it's ideal when we have a busy week. It's an expensive treat though, this year I'd like to work out those cupboard/fridge essentials to create quick, healthy but delicious meals from scratch at home. Ooh and to find some signature dishes that I can nail every time!

More Reading. 
There's no escapism quite like it is there? Despite that, I never dedicate enough time to getting lost in another world with a good book. I want to cut down my screen time so I really want to get into the habit of reading on my commute. I read 6 books last year, so I want to top that! More podcasts and audiobooks too - for when my square eyes need a break entirely.

More... Me?
Lately, I've been really thinking about who I am. About to get a lil deep, bare with me. I'm very easily influenced by what people around me are doing, saying, wearing, thinking, even bloody eating. Sometimes I have to make a conscious effort to make sure I'm doing something because I want to do it, not because everybody else is doing it. I'm always walking that fine line of 'am I inspired? or completely influenced?' and it's starting to play on my mind. I want to take a bit of time to find me this year - whether that's in my clothes, my political views, my photography or even what I'm having for lunch (although food envy is never a good thing, so maybe I'll continue to copy on this one...) I'm totally aware I need to remind myself I'm an actual adult more than I do - an adult with valid points, opinions, thoughts and feelings. I do think it's something that comes with age and something I feel more confident in every year. Caring about what other people think plays a huge part in this too, if I'm doing what everyone else is doing then no one can say anything - which isn't entirely true, but feels like a safe space. Saying this, I also need to remind myself it is okay to stay neutral about something or to like the same things as other people, it doesn't mean it's copying or unoriginal - maybe it's just a really great thing? Oh, what a mind f*ck. Either way, a little clarity on who I am in 2020 please. 

I think that's enough for now, we got some big ol' goals there! I'll be realistic about it, but there's nothing there that's unachievable and a lot of things that will equate to happier, healthy and more fulfilled Georgia. And I'm very much here for that.

G x




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