Oh hey there! Hope January is treating you well. As you can see we've had a mini re-brand! 'Love on the Wall' is no more and now my blog simply goes by the same name as me. (just my URL to sort, bare with!) I've taken a step back to see how I want to use my online space this year, with a change of job too, I want it to sit nicely together and keeping it simple feels like the right direction.
More Moving. Run another 5k.
I think that's enough for now, we got some big ol' goals there! I'll be realistic about it, but there's nothing there that's unachievable and a lot of things that will equate to happier, healthy and more fulfilled Georgia. And I'm very much here for that.
G x
So, Twenty Twenty is here! How on earth we got here and we're not still traipsing through a rainy 2019 Feb, I have no idea. I bloomin' love a new year though, I feel all those positive vibes kick in and I feel ready to take on the world. I always find the New Year hits and I haven't started thinking about my goals for the year ahead, so instead of rushing them so I can start them the moment the clock strikes 12, I usually take a few days to really evaluate what I'd like to achieve in the next 365 days.
Last year I started running (who am I?) and in September I ran my first 5k! Running was never something I enjoyed growing up but despite finding it tough, it seems to kinda work for me. I can do where ever, whenever and it's free. I want to pick it back up again - when it's not dark and 0 degrees outside, let's be honest - and enter myself into another 5k. I try not too be too hard on my body - it keeps me alive and it's a bloody wonderful thing. However, I do want to feel stronger and healthier so I hope to make a bit of a fitness journey this year to find my groove. (I'd also really like to fit comfortably into my Topshop jeans again, please, thanks.)
More Creating.
I'd like to focus on expanding my skills and creating more in 2020. Learning new ways to edit, new settings on my camera, practising more calligraphy, getting to grips with procreate on my iPad, trying new things, testing new ways. My job is creative - and at the end of last year I went part-time free lance, so it's on me now! - so I want to feel inspired and have new ideas, that won't happen if I sit in my comfort zone. I want to look back on 2020 and see work (and play) that I'm truly proud I created.
More Cooking.
In 2019, one of my goals was to cook more and learn more recipes. With it being my first full year living in my house, this was bound to happen but I made an active effort to try new things. We actually ordered a few Hello Fresh boxes which broadened our 'go-to' recipes massively and it's ideal when we have a busy week. It's an expensive treat though, this year I'd like to work out those cupboard/fridge essentials to create quick, healthy but delicious meals from scratch at home. Ooh and to find some signature dishes that I can nail every time!
More Reading.
There's no escapism quite like it is there? Despite that, I never dedicate enough time to getting lost in another world with a good book. I want to cut down my screen time so I really want to get into the habit of reading on my commute. I read 6 books last year, so I want to top that! More podcasts and audiobooks too - for when my square eyes need a break entirely.
More... Me?
Lately, I've been really thinking about who I am. About to get a lil deep, bare with me. I'm very easily influenced by what people around me are doing, saying, wearing, thinking, even bloody eating. Sometimes I have to make a conscious effort to make sure I'm doing something because I want to do it, not because everybody else is doing it. I'm always walking that fine line of 'am I inspired? or completely influenced?' and it's starting to play on my mind. I want to take a bit of time to find me this year - whether that's in my clothes, my political views, my photography or even what I'm having for lunch (although food envy is never a good thing, so maybe I'll continue to copy on this one...) I'm totally aware I need to remind myself I'm an actual adult more than I do - an adult with valid points, opinions, thoughts and feelings. I do think it's something that comes with age and something I feel more confident in every year. Caring about what other people think plays a huge part in this too, if I'm doing what everyone else is doing then no one can say anything - which isn't entirely true, but feels like a safe space. Saying this, I also need to remind myself it is okay to stay neutral about something or to like the same things as other people, it doesn't mean it's copying or unoriginal - maybe it's just a really great thing? Oh, what a mind f*ck. Either way, a little clarity on who I am in 2020 please.
I think that's enough for now, we got some big ol' goals there! I'll be realistic about it, but there's nothing there that's unachievable and a lot of things that will equate to happier, healthy and more fulfilled Georgia. And I'm very much here for that.
G x
1 comment
Less than 48 hours left of 2017, when did that happen?!
I thought I'd finish off the year with a little reflection on the year and a round up of how I'm feeling going in to 2018.
I have to be completely honest about my year. I know a 'Year in Review' should be positive, but I'm not going to sugarcoat. This year has been a year of ups, downs and, in my opinion, not enough.
I will start with the 'downs and not enough' (let's get the bad stuff out the way, then onto the more positives baby!)
As we got towards the end of the year, at the start of November I was feeling pretty low and one Sunday morning I knew enough was enough and had a big scream-y, ugly cry. I opened up to Henry about feeling lost, uninspired, lazy and unproductive. Put simply, I panicked as I felt I hadn't achieved enough this year. I had such big ideas for my year when I look back at my resolutions, but post University life really isn't plain sailing. Afraid of what the big wide world has to offer me, I spent the year quietly sailing on through, hoping job opportunities might come up, hoping my dream job might just happen, being afraid to commit 'just in case', lacking confidence and at the same time wanting the freedom of my own life, my own home and my own money. No one needs to be told these things don't go hand in hand.
Don't get me wrong, what I have achieved this year, I am really proud of. I didn't do nothing, I just didn't do enough. I'm simply disappointed in myself because I know I could have achieved more.
BUT, onto the positives and how I'm moving forward and learning from a not-so-sweet year!
This year I finally saved enough to buy my first DSLR camera I have wanted for longer than I can remember. I received my first payment from YouTube, a little reward for doing something you love is the best. I filmed my best wedding video yet for one happy happy couple! I uploaded 45 videos on to my YouTube channel and hit 45k views on one. I interned and got the job as a Social Media Assistant for a pretty cool company and learnt a lot. It came to an end through my own decision recently but gave me a confidence boost and knowledge to take into next year and new jobs. I filmed and edited my first ever music video. I had a busy Summer of singing, photography, videography, wedding work, being a receptionist and doing social media work. I spent quality time with my beautiful family. I realised the true importance of your girl-gang and having people you can trust with your deepest, darkest (and certainly most embarrassing) secrets. I celebrated four years with Henry, I don't know what I'd do without his endless support. He puts up with worrying, stress and tearful me a lot, but is always caring, honest and has my best interest at heart.
Moving forward, I don't have any regrets about this year. I worry enough about the things that haven't happened, so there's definitely no point me worrying about what can't be undone.
I'm learning from it. I'm turning negatives into positives and using it as a driving force for 2018.
I'm feeling extremely motivated to learn, hone in on my skill sets and to push myself to think outside the box. I'm putting a little plan together for 2018 to go alongside my New Years Resolutions, just watch this space (and check out my first blog post in Jan)
So, that's a wrap on 2017. Whether you're getting glitzy and sipping many a prosecco or snuggling down in PJ's with pizza this evening, have a good one!
G x
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)